Swiftcurretn 7/12/2012

It is weird to think that I only have 6 weeks left with my new family here. A lot has gone on and I know I will miss all of them so much. But I don’t want to think about that right now! I have already had to say an unexpected early goodbye to 4 different friends for various reasons and it has taken a toll on all of us. I don’t know what it will be like when I have to say good bye to all of these people that I could possibly never see again.

That is what is troubling my heart. I could literally never see them again. Yet again I could! I know nothing I say or do could ever force them to the cross, it’s the Holy Spirit’s leading and guiding, I am just simply a tool, which needs to continue to be faithful to follow His leading. I think I have been living under a delusion that simple acts is enough… yet without words I get the glory for my actions as I receive accolade.

Don’t get me wrong, I have shared my faith verbally but was it ever really enough? I need prayer these last couple of weeks that all my words are intentional and those I work with can see the same exact passion and joy I get will sharing with those who show up on Sunday morning worship service here in the park. It’s exciting to be able to and know that these people I am talking to are not completely closed off to the gospel just do not understand the freedom it gives instead of binding us to the law and to being a goody-two-shoes with a holier than thou attitude.

We are all longing for freedom, hence why many of these people ended up here. But there is only one freedom that will truly last, and makes my spirit sing songs of joy. Pray that they will find true freedom and not see a life with Christ as a burden they must carry. And for me pray for continued strength, that I would continue to seek out the Lord and see Him as my refuge.

In Christ Alone

Ana Kaufman <><